Anyway, last weekend we went to Kansas City area to visit Stephen's family... well his two brothers anyway and their families. We were able to see each of our four nieces, and they all enjoyed the gifts we got them. Everything went super well other than Stephen's brother John coming down with strep throat and that put a little kink in our plans for a minute. We had a wonderful time and I couldn't believe how big all the girls were since I last saw them. I cannot wait until we all live closer again.
Then this weekend Shyann stayed with me and we spent the majority of our time playing games. Today Shyann, Aunt Tracey, My mom, and I all went over to grandma's for Christmas dinner. Tracey and I cooked and the food was great. Not to mention we all got along for the most part which is usually unheard of. I was really happy, but most of all I am sure it made our grandma happy too. We really did have a pretty good time.
So Christmas went really well, which is good because next year there is a good chance that I might be living somewhere else, so I wanted to make sure this year had some good memories.
On other rants; a lot of things have been bothering me.
For one; I have been sick for nearly two months off and on, and it is really getting to me! Stephen seems to be sick too and that just makes it worse. I know this is probably all just my nerves and stress but it is seriously getting old.
Also, I finished the semester, so that is a big relief.... However, I ended up failing Sociology (mostly because my teacher SUCKED!) but anyway... that doesn't look very good. However, I got all A's and B's in my other classes, so that is good news.
My mom is talking about weird things again. (Does she ever stop??) Anyway... so now she is saying that she is talking to Chris. (my friend that died a while back) and that he has told her some things, like that we all need to pray him into heaven, and he is apologizing. Also I guess he wanted my Aunt Tracey to know that she would see her son in heaven when she got there? So I guess my aunts son who she gave up for adoption when she was sixteen might be dead? I don't really know what to believe. Most of me wants to say that my mom is just crazy and needs help herself, but then I am not too sure. What if she really is hearing stuff? I don't think it is a good thing either way, but I would hate to have to live with the fact that I didn't tell Chris' mom to help pray him in if that really is something that needs to be done. Then again; I don't really believe that people can pray you into heaven... I always thought that had to be a personal decision you made with God. I know Chris believed in God, but I am not too confident about the relationship... and this is kind of getting to me. :/
In other news, I still have a couple of weeks left before I can take another pregnancy test to find out if our efforts worked this month. Most of me REALLY wants to see two red lines, but there is still that small part that is totally freaked out due to bills and other uncertainties in life. Then I tell myself, can we really base our life on uncertainties? Because in all honestly... the only thing for certain is uncertainty anyway.
Anyway; the good news is I am out of classes until January 18th so I have a little time to relax and try to enjoy life a little before I kill myself again.
Woooooooooooooooooooooooo... ba.
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