A Change Of Plan.

So, if you know me at all- you know that I have been so super excited for my graduation from college in December. At that point I will get my Associates of Science in Early Childhood Eduacation.
However- I have had a change of heart, and plans lately. For a while now Stephen and I have talked about me being a stay-at-home mom when we have children. We had planned for me to stay at home until our children were in school and then I could work part time while they were in class.
I love working with children, and I want to have children. Early Childhood Education was no mistake as a major. I never thought I would go more than two years of college though. Now I have decided to stay at OTC for another semester where I will have to complete 7 more classes. (2 in the summer) to get a transfer degree.
After we move to the Kansas City area, I plan to transfer to a college in K.C. and get my Bacholers of Science in Elementary Education! :D
This is a new decision for me, but I think it is a great one. If I go to college full time it will only be 3 more years. If I go part time, 5. Stephen and I do not have any children yet though, and I planned to stay at home for atleast the first five or so years. So while I have the little ones at home the plan is for me to continue my education. And then when the kids are in school I can be a teacher and have a similar schedule as them. :)
Also, this gives me something more to do while STephen is in bootcamp- and when I am a stay at home mom it will give me confidence of also going to college as well.
Anyway- I am excited for this new opprotunity and I am glad that Stephen is being so supportive. I cannot wait for whatever life has to offer. :)

The Waiting Game.

Well, It's been a couple weeks since I have written a blog. Nothing much has happened, other than getting cut hours and not too sure how Stephen and I are going to make it through the winter. I was promised when Angie came back last winter/spring that I wouldn't loose any hours and she was only going to be there when we were busy enough to have us both... but guess what? I guess that was just talk. After being closed on Mondays I lost that day... which was okay with me- but then we were told to pick a day off. I was upset, but chose Tuesdays anyway and Angie said she would take off Fridays. Angies also said she would take off Thursdays if it was too slow for both of us... but now- Angie is working tue, thurs and fri and I am only working on Wed and SAt. Really great. I don't know how I am going to support myself. That is only like... 15 hours. Ugh. =(
I understand that we get slow... but it really sucks, because I though I was going to get my hours first and only get called off when it was too slow for either of us, and that ended up being nothing but a lie.

On the other hand... we still haven't heard anything about Stephen leaving for bootcamp. It could be anytime now... they only have to give us 30 days. I really don't want him to leave, but I do... because the sooner he leaves- the sooner he will get back and we can move on with our lives. Which I am totally ready to do.

Hopefully we don't lose everything we have worked so hard for this winter.

I am just waiting... again.

Wake Me Up When September Ends.

So here I am again, waiting for the next big thing. Kind of. I feel like I almost try to wish my life away, which isn't what I want to do... but I am just always ready for something better. I want to make a good life for myself, for my family. Heck, I'd just like to have a family!
September... oh September has never brought much good to me. It's one of those "wasted" months in my opinion. It's the ending of the summer, and I love summer. School starts in August, but really takes full effect in September. There are no speakable holidays in September. Labor day is useless. September is one of those months I could just sleep right through.
This year in specific, I want it to pass because I am hoping that Stephen will be leaving for bootcamp soon. Not to sound harsh, but I would like him to leave sooner rather than later. The sooner he leaves, the sooner he will get back. As of right now the soonest he will go is October. If he leaves in October he wont be back until April. April just seems so far away. It's sad that Stephen will be gone for all the holidays, my college graduation, our first anniversary, and probably even his birthday... but it will be worth it.
It's worth it because when he does get back we can hopefully move forward with our lives full speed ahead. When he gets back, no more birth control for me! We will be attempting to have our first baby! This is so exciting for both of us. Also... in August, we will hopefully be moving into our first home together! A place to start raising a family, a place to call our own, and to put all our stuff! Plus... it means I will be away from all the wack jobs here in Springfield. (no offense) And I wont be in school anymore. I am so glad that I will be graduated! really... only 3.5 months left. :D
I am trying hard to enjoy this time, I really am. However, to me this time seems to be at a standstill. Stephen and I are married, which is great. I love being married... but we are stressing about saving for the future... when I just want to get to the future. I am still in school, and I am so ready to finish! Stephen and I are both itching for a baby boy.. or girl and as of yet, there is nothing we can do about it. (if we want to stay smart)

Waiting mode just plain and simple... stinks.

On the other hand, atleast I have this time to spend with my amazing friends before I do move. I love them much and I am very thankful to have them. My hope is that the friendships will remain no matter how many miles are between us.