So, lately I have been completely stressed out with my job, and I am sure every one has gotten that. In fact, I really haven't been happy for around a year or so but I had to make money some how. Luckily things have really turned around for me and I am so over joyed I almost feel guilty about it.
In the last three weeks I have literally worked about ten hours, which one logically cannot live off of. It has been really stressing me out, and Stephen and I are so broke! Finally I decided to get serious and find something else. On Monday I started looking for a new job, specifically in a daycare so I wouldn't have to worry about doing lab hours any more. After some-what over looking a post I had seen because it was posted in the wrong section of craigslist, I decided to finally call this daycare anyway on Wednesday. I talked to the owner on the phone that morning and got an interview set up for 1:00 that afternoon. Of course I was thrilled; but I really didn't want to get my hopes up. The interview went really well for me and I was thrilled to see owners of a business that seemed pleasant and logical. They told me that they would call me back that day, and so I began to wait... and wait.
I knew that the center closed at 6:00- so when it was 7:00pm and I still hadn't heard anything I assumed that they decided not to hire me after all. Then at around 9:00 that night I got a phone call! He apologized for it being so late as he had some things come up... but then followed to tell me that he wanted to offer me a job as the lead teacher of the 1-year-old room! I was STOKED! This is what I have been wanting for a long time. Better yet, I am guaranteed at least 40 hours a week, and up to 50 hours. I also get a 30 minute break during the day- which was so weird, but I LOVED it!
I went to quit my job at Clippers N Dippers and Jenni took it better than expected (thank God) I didn't give her much notice, but I didn't feel too bad because I haven't worked for weeks when I was promised to get first dibs on hours this winter- yet Angie has been working at least 30 hours a week. I also had to go and quit at OTC, which was kind of sad because I was attached to the other teachers and my 3-year-olds... but they all wished me luck and were really great about it.
My first day was Friday and it went pretty well. My hours are from 8:00am to 5-5:30ish Monday-Friday. I couldn't be happier. I just hope every thing continues to go really well. I am in the classroom by myself as the only teacher most of the day until we combine toward the very end of the day sometimes.
This also gives me a lot more conformation about the baby thing. I have been wanting to start trying for a while, but I was worried about working at Clippers N Dippers pregnant, and if Jenni wouldn't pull some crap and just fire me for no good reason anyway. I was worried about having to work 60 hours a week in the summer heat in there with no breaks and heavy lifting. Now that I have this other job, even though the pay is less- I can comfortably start trying without worrying about not being able to work due to pregnancy. It is a lot easier to lift a 1-year-old than a 100+ pound dog.
Anyway- I need to keep my head up, because I know God will provide and I am so lucky that things are starting to turn around now. :)
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
I can't hardly stand the people here.
Each day that passes I feel like there is nothing in the world that would possibly make me want to stay in Springfield. It seems like I am surrounded by some of the worst people ever! I adore all of my friends that are so wonderful, but it seems the bad is outweighing the good lately. No way on earth would I want to raise my children here, that's for sure.
It seems my boss has some kind of personal issue with me. She is always pissed off at me but never has a legitimate reason as to why. A couple months ago the 'reason' was that I was a perfectionist. I thought that was something that employers wanted!? Then after she lied about giving me dibs on hours and cut me down I asked her if I was doing something wrong and that pissed her off. She couldn't give me an answer but was seriously offended that I even asked. Multiple times since she gave the other bather my hours, there is stuff she hasn't done and then my boss yells at me. It's like seriously... if I was here she knows it would be done, and done well. I have a hard time being happy at work but I have to have a job and I can't really express my feelings about what is going on because that just makes her mad. Even though it is her herself that told me to tell her if anything ever seemed unfair or if anything bothered me. I literally worked zero hours this week, and ten the week before. How is one supposed to live off of that? They can't. I guess I am supposed to work some kind of magic. :(
The next person that is really bringing me down is Tracey. She is so awful to Stephen and I. A few weeks ago she came over here to pick up Shyann (only because I told her I didn't have gas and couldn't pick her up AND bring her home this time.) and she was with some other woman and she had obviously been drinking. Shyann smelled it on her breath, and then she lied to Shyann but told me she would tell me the truth later. (obviously admitting it, right?) Then we comtemplated calling the cops on her because she was driving with Shyann, another child and another lady in the car. We didn't though, because I didn't want Shyann to deal with her mom getting arrested again. So we accidentally brought it up the next weekend when we were visiting my grandma, and a couple days later she called Stephen cussing him out, after she was cussing out my grandma and not letting her leave for work. The next time I saw her she admitted she was drunk, but still refused to apologize to Stephen. Last week Shyann called me crying because her mom and dad were fighting and Tracey was mad that Shyann left a couple days before when she was drunk. I went to pick Shyann up, and Tracey called the cops on me! After everything I have done for her! She owes me over $100 (which I could use because I'm SO BROKE!) and I always pick up and drop off Shyann. I buy school clothes for Shyann, take Shyann where she needs to go, and let Shyann earn money by working for us sometimes. Tracey is drunk all the time, She always tried to beat me up when I was a kid, she has hit her own daughter, hit my grandma, and driven while drunk but I have NEVER called the cops on her. I try to keep Shyann safe, and she calls the cops on me for kidnapping! FUCK HER. I stand by this, from now on if there is any reason to call the cops on her- I WILL do it.
Lastly, but not least- my mother. Oh I am so sick of dealing with her! SERIOUSLY it pisses me off so bad! The last two years have been hell with her. When I moved out she threatened to take my car, that I had paid for myself, but since I was only 16 her name was on it and she was being the devil. She never accepted Stephen into our lives, even though he is amazing to me and tries to be nice to everyone else even when they hurt me constantly (like she does.) From the time I moved out she decided that I was no longer important, and her marital problems with Kevin seem to be her excuse for everything but I don't think that matters. I am still her child and she should make an effort. Around Thanksgiving last year she got pissed off because I was having my (more reliable) cousin do my wedding shower, and then when the wedding shower came around she didn't show up because she was in jail. On Christmas we were all supposed to go to grandma's but instead her and Tracey went to my uncles and got drunk and beat each other up while Stephen and I were the only one's at grandma's while she got depressed because none of her kids care about her. She was in rehab for whatever she was in jail for, and she broke out to come to my wedding, and I spent my whole wedding day worried to death that the cops were going to show up and take her away. I had to threaten to have escorts take her and Kevin out if they didn't stop fighting. After my wedding she picked a huge fight with me and we didn't talk again until June when I invited her to a BBQ that we were having and things seemed to be made up. Then she invited Stephen and I over just to call us and cancel because her and Kevin couldn't get along. She never rescheduled. Since then it has been fighting constantly if we talk at all. A few weeks ago I called her and invited her to church but she couldn't go because she was in rehab again. She told me she would call me when she got out but she never did, and I haven't talked to her since. Now she wants to pick a fight with my husband and talk shit to my family about us when she has NEVER tried. I cannot wait to get away from her. She never wanted to be a mother and she never will be a mother to me. She is still stuck in a 15-year-old mindset and refuses to take responsibility for her own actions. I am ready to change my phone number, move and not give her my address, block her from facebook and be done with it.
So just more reasons I am ready to move.
Speaking of moving, I may be able to move faster if I can save money for our savings goals sooner than expected. I don't know if I can though. I talked to my adviser for college and she told me that I can take all my classes next semester and graduate in May if I want to. That would be 19 credit hours though and I don't know if I would be able to handle that. Plus I wouldn't receive as much financial aid if I did it that way. If I stay and wait to graduate until July I can take 13 classes in the Spring and 6 in the summer and still be considered full time and get more money out of the deal; but that means I would have to be stuck here even longer- and possibly without Stephen if QT has closed already and is in Kansas City.
So we will just wait and see what happens. PHEW! I feel better after ranting about the crazies.
It seems my boss has some kind of personal issue with me. She is always pissed off at me but never has a legitimate reason as to why. A couple months ago the 'reason' was that I was a perfectionist. I thought that was something that employers wanted!? Then after she lied about giving me dibs on hours and cut me down I asked her if I was doing something wrong and that pissed her off. She couldn't give me an answer but was seriously offended that I even asked. Multiple times since she gave the other bather my hours, there is stuff she hasn't done and then my boss yells at me. It's like seriously... if I was here she knows it would be done, and done well. I have a hard time being happy at work but I have to have a job and I can't really express my feelings about what is going on because that just makes her mad. Even though it is her herself that told me to tell her if anything ever seemed unfair or if anything bothered me. I literally worked zero hours this week, and ten the week before. How is one supposed to live off of that? They can't. I guess I am supposed to work some kind of magic. :(
The next person that is really bringing me down is Tracey. She is so awful to Stephen and I. A few weeks ago she came over here to pick up Shyann (only because I told her I didn't have gas and couldn't pick her up AND bring her home this time.) and she was with some other woman and she had obviously been drinking. Shyann smelled it on her breath, and then she lied to Shyann but told me she would tell me the truth later. (obviously admitting it, right?) Then we comtemplated calling the cops on her because she was driving with Shyann, another child and another lady in the car. We didn't though, because I didn't want Shyann to deal with her mom getting arrested again. So we accidentally brought it up the next weekend when we were visiting my grandma, and a couple days later she called Stephen cussing him out, after she was cussing out my grandma and not letting her leave for work. The next time I saw her she admitted she was drunk, but still refused to apologize to Stephen. Last week Shyann called me crying because her mom and dad were fighting and Tracey was mad that Shyann left a couple days before when she was drunk. I went to pick Shyann up, and Tracey called the cops on me! After everything I have done for her! She owes me over $100 (which I could use because I'm SO BROKE!) and I always pick up and drop off Shyann. I buy school clothes for Shyann, take Shyann where she needs to go, and let Shyann earn money by working for us sometimes. Tracey is drunk all the time, She always tried to beat me up when I was a kid, she has hit her own daughter, hit my grandma, and driven while drunk but I have NEVER called the cops on her. I try to keep Shyann safe, and she calls the cops on me for kidnapping! FUCK HER. I stand by this, from now on if there is any reason to call the cops on her- I WILL do it.
Lastly, but not least- my mother. Oh I am so sick of dealing with her! SERIOUSLY it pisses me off so bad! The last two years have been hell with her. When I moved out she threatened to take my car, that I had paid for myself, but since I was only 16 her name was on it and she was being the devil. She never accepted Stephen into our lives, even though he is amazing to me and tries to be nice to everyone else even when they hurt me constantly (like she does.) From the time I moved out she decided that I was no longer important, and her marital problems with Kevin seem to be her excuse for everything but I don't think that matters. I am still her child and she should make an effort. Around Thanksgiving last year she got pissed off because I was having my (more reliable) cousin do my wedding shower, and then when the wedding shower came around she didn't show up because she was in jail. On Christmas we were all supposed to go to grandma's but instead her and Tracey went to my uncles and got drunk and beat each other up while Stephen and I were the only one's at grandma's while she got depressed because none of her kids care about her. She was in rehab for whatever she was in jail for, and she broke out to come to my wedding, and I spent my whole wedding day worried to death that the cops were going to show up and take her away. I had to threaten to have escorts take her and Kevin out if they didn't stop fighting. After my wedding she picked a huge fight with me and we didn't talk again until June when I invited her to a BBQ that we were having and things seemed to be made up. Then she invited Stephen and I over just to call us and cancel because her and Kevin couldn't get along. She never rescheduled. Since then it has been fighting constantly if we talk at all. A few weeks ago I called her and invited her to church but she couldn't go because she was in rehab again. She told me she would call me when she got out but she never did, and I haven't talked to her since. Now she wants to pick a fight with my husband and talk shit to my family about us when she has NEVER tried. I cannot wait to get away from her. She never wanted to be a mother and she never will be a mother to me. She is still stuck in a 15-year-old mindset and refuses to take responsibility for her own actions. I am ready to change my phone number, move and not give her my address, block her from facebook and be done with it.
So just more reasons I am ready to move.
Speaking of moving, I may be able to move faster if I can save money for our savings goals sooner than expected. I don't know if I can though. I talked to my adviser for college and she told me that I can take all my classes next semester and graduate in May if I want to. That would be 19 credit hours though and I don't know if I would be able to handle that. Plus I wouldn't receive as much financial aid if I did it that way. If I stay and wait to graduate until July I can take 13 classes in the Spring and 6 in the summer and still be considered full time and get more money out of the deal; but that means I would have to be stuck here even longer- and possibly without Stephen if QT has closed already and is in Kansas City.
So we will just wait and see what happens. PHEW! I feel better after ranting about the crazies.
Friday, October 15, 2010
You probably expected this to happen.
So... February has turned into November. I picked up my last package of birth control yesterday and once it is gone, it's gone! Wish us luck :D
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Absolute Chaos.
So after my last post a lot has happened. I decided that I wanted to go ahead and take a few more classes at OTC that will end me in getting my transfer degree as well as my AAS in Early Childhood, which means instead of graduating in December as planned, I will be putting off graduation until the end of July where I will graduate as a double-major. Since then I talked to my adviser and found out the classes I need to take and everything, it seems as if it is all going to work out.
But right after I talked to my adviser Stephen and I were leaving OTC and he gets a call from his boss wanting him to come in and speak with him in person. So we drive to Ozark and Stephen goes in to talk to his boss, and comes out telling me the news that QuikTrip in Springfield is going to be closing down. The only options is for him to work for whoever buys it... or transfer. We do not know when QuikTrip will sell, but whenever it does (unless hes in boot camp) he will have to transfer up to Kansas City without me because I cannot leave until I finish my transfer degree!
In the meantime I have been talking to the Dean at University of Central Missouri in Warrensburg (about 30 mins away from Blue Springs.) and found out they have a great Early Childhood Education BA degree that I could easily pursue.
We still haven't heard anything about when he will be leaving for boot camp. If he doesn't leave for boot camp and then gets transferred to KC before he ever leaves, I will probably be moving back in with my grandma until I can move up to KC with him. However if he goes to boot camp soon, I don't really wanna move in with her yet because there is still a chance of him coming back and QT still being here in Springfield.
I still have the baby blues, but now I am even more worried about Stephen not being around. If I get pregnant any time soon there is a good chance he will either be transferred to KC without me when I have the baby, or he will be in boot camp. So I think we will end up waiting at least until February or so before we start trying for a baby, that way I make sure I finish my transfer degree and can move up to KC.
Life has been crazier than ever lately (as you can imagine) but we are trying to enjoy the time we have together anyway. It's looking like Stephen might end up being home for the holidays after all if we don't hear something soon. We have already been celebrating the fall festivities.
But right after I talked to my adviser Stephen and I were leaving OTC and he gets a call from his boss wanting him to come in and speak with him in person. So we drive to Ozark and Stephen goes in to talk to his boss, and comes out telling me the news that QuikTrip in Springfield is going to be closing down. The only options is for him to work for whoever buys it... or transfer. We do not know when QuikTrip will sell, but whenever it does (unless hes in boot camp) he will have to transfer up to Kansas City without me because I cannot leave until I finish my transfer degree!
In the meantime I have been talking to the Dean at University of Central Missouri in Warrensburg (about 30 mins away from Blue Springs.) and found out they have a great Early Childhood Education BA degree that I could easily pursue.
We still haven't heard anything about when he will be leaving for boot camp. If he doesn't leave for boot camp and then gets transferred to KC before he ever leaves, I will probably be moving back in with my grandma until I can move up to KC with him. However if he goes to boot camp soon, I don't really wanna move in with her yet because there is still a chance of him coming back and QT still being here in Springfield.
I still have the baby blues, but now I am even more worried about Stephen not being around. If I get pregnant any time soon there is a good chance he will either be transferred to KC without me when I have the baby, or he will be in boot camp. So I think we will end up waiting at least until February or so before we start trying for a baby, that way I make sure I finish my transfer degree and can move up to KC.
Life has been crazier than ever lately (as you can imagine) but we are trying to enjoy the time we have together anyway. It's looking like Stephen might end up being home for the holidays after all if we don't hear something soon. We have already been celebrating the fall festivities.
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